Who I Am

So after a few days of Mercury retrograde and communications being all haywire and such, I decided that everyone who reads my little blogspot needs to know that this blog represents only the tiniest fraction of who I am.

I blog when I have time (rarely) or feel moved to share. I journal much more with paper and pen than I share here. If you take this tiny part of me and try to psychoanalyze the whole of me, you'll be lacking the most of me and will only come up with a fraction of me.... gee, can I set that to music?

I am so much more than the few words I've shared here. People can only accurately describe what they perceive and experience. Perceptions differ in the light of the eyes that view them...

Just so you know, Mercury rules communications and when he retrogrades, these things do run amuk. He also rules moving parts and electronics so if things are fritzing, blame Mercury. It is not a good time to sign contracts or buy electronics. He will go direct on July 20 and the change will be a welcome relief as it always is when he's finished disrupting the universe!  

So, just in case any of you are wondering who I am, these are my personal perceptions of me and who I strive to be: I am laughter and light. I am joy. I am a big kid at heart. I am a lover of animals, nature, and art of all kinds. I am peace and understanding (unless I'm taking something too literal which does happen as has been brought to my attention again recently). I am stubborn, strong willed and independent (but learning to lean on others). Life is too short to be filled with worry, anxiety and fears. Of course I am human and I experience all of these emotions but then I let them slip through my fingers like tiny grains of sand as they serve no good purpose in my life that I can ascertain. 

Can we ever really know anyone from the few words they write and share openly? Only perhaps if we've been reading them for years.....

My shoes probably tell a lot more about who I am than my blog does so I thought I'd share my most favorite pair! My red, white and blue, flowery Dansko's! I have happy feet! Peace and Love to you all and I hope you survive Mercury retrograde with your communications intact!

Vacations....

It's that time of year when the notion of a vacation is looming in my mind. Where to go and what to do this year? I've been considering a variety of activities and places to go. Of course, the beach always looms large in my list of vacation destinations but I'm thinking maybe I need to do something a bit different this year and perhaps fly solo to another state or even country and just soak in a different culture completely. Hmmmm...... the possibilities are endless....thoughts anyone?

We cry....

I leaned in closer to catch what she was saying...her voice just a whisper in the chaotic day...
"I love you sweetheart" she said as she patted my hand. I responded in kind and gently squeezed her frail hand. She wiped silent tears from her face that she said were from joy not sorrow. "We cry when we're happy and we cry when we're sad" she told me. "Tears are the release we need sometimes to free our souls and make room for newer experiences. These are tears of joy because I know I am loved." What lessons this beloved little old soul has taught me!

"Will you think of me? When I'm gone?" she whispers. "Of course I will." I exclaim and it is true. Her impact on my life has been so great even though we've only known each other these few short years. I try to make her comfortable as she turns away from the position she was in. Her eyesight is failing but her hearing is strong as she catches me sniffling a bit. "Are you catching a cold sweetie?" she asks in that small, quiet voice. "Allergies" I mumbled not wanting her to see me in a moment of weakness. Not wanting to cry and share my tears at the thought of losing yet another precious person in my life to the ultimate reality of death...

Lean On Me

Lean on me....

Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain
We all have sorrow

But if we are wise
We know that there's
Always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
All I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on

For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Someone to lean on.....

I've always appreciated this song...We all need someone sometimesjust to lean on....
Peace and Love

Same Love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlVBg7_08n0

I am so moved by this song that I feel the need to share it here as I did on facebook. Many won't understand or like it. I don't care. I'm through caring what others think about the things I care about. It's not my business. The message is what's important. Thanks to Evin for sharing it with me. She knows my soul and she knows how I feel about equality meaning ALL are equal! It should not matter what your gender is or the color of your skin, your  religion, politics or any of the above. If you love someone then you just love them. It's that simple!

Live on!

Peace and Love to you all this beautiful Tuesday.

When death comes...

Sometimes when death comes, it is startling in it's arrival.
Unexpected and cruel too.

Today a vibrant 53 year old man died at my job. He was our landscaper. He had a massive heart attack while working outside and try as hard as I could to help, there was not much that could be done. His 22 year old son stood by and watched as helpless as I was. All we could do was hold him and tell him help was on the way. CPR was not an option as he still had a pulse and was still breathing every 15 to 20 seconds. He turned purple and my heart just broke for his son and family as I could tell he was leaving this world.

The ambulance came and his son rode away with them.

We got word about an hour later that he had passed away.

Death shocks me.

I know it's the natural process of life but it still shocks me when I experience it so abruptly.

Goodbye Michael.

Ziggy

My God daughter Evin who lives with me and I picked him up in Alabama yesterday. 

He's a Potcake rescue puppy from the Turks and Caicos.

My son Marks and our poodle Kozmo hanging with Ziggy.

 Poor fella was wiped out from his travels!

Last night before bed time we were stretched out on the kitchen couch.

 Kozmo was on my lap but I couldn't get all of us in the pic!

This morning! He has captured my heart!

I forgot how much like babies that puppies can be! We were up several times in the night to go outside! He whines when he wants to go out too! Such a good little fella! I'm in love!