PMS....

It is raining
in the recesses of my heart...
while the fine droplets fall
amidst the veil of my soul.

I do not seek this sadness
as it wraps itself
so securely around me.
It just is.
It's just there....
lurking beneath the surface
making it's monthly appearance...

I wear my face
frozen in place
a smile for the world to see
while I slowly fall inside myself

I am bold on the outside

I am fearless
I am a force to be reckoned with
I am strong
I am
as I dip beneath the surface

to see if I have changed me

still there....
feeling too much
waiting for the waves to subside
as I lean into a new day